Oh, this is truly an intriguing journey! When we dive into the lyrics of “Falling Up” by fixl matt wills, we find ourselves at the epicenter of emotional paradox. This is not just a song about relationships — it’s a philosophical manifesto on how chaos can become the highest form of love.
Let’s try to unpack this story, moving from doubt to the breathtaking flight that the narrator calls falling up.
The Dialectic of Doubt and Despair
The narrator opens a picture of a relationship that exists on the edge of collapse, yet it is precisely this edge that fuels it.
The opening lines are full of direct address and painful silence: “Say something / Are we having doubts?“. He keenly feels the need to speak about this feeling: “we should talk about“. But in response — a deafening wall: “But you say nothing / When I’m around“.
This is a classic drama of mismatch: one seeks openness, the other withdraws. The most painful part is the external game: “But you tell your friends that / You’re better off without me“. The narrator is close, feels the chemistry, yet knows he is devalued in the social sphere.
The first intrigue: Even knowing this, the narrator does not retreat. He believes in the possibility of repair (“love can be repaired“) and asserts that they are already perfect, so “damn perfect” that no “wake up” is needed, because “beauty is in our make up“.
Subjective conclusion: This is not mere denial of reality; it’s existential optimism. Even if circumstances (friends, silence) scream of an end, the core of the relationship is unparalleled and deserves continuation.
Chaos as a Method of Understanding
The following lines show how intense the pursuit of this unreachable love is. The partner throws him “left, right, Girl, all night” — a metaphor for emotional swings and unpredictability. Instead, the narrator joins the game, embracing its rules: “I’m going up, down, around this town“.
This movement is an attempt to gain control through complete submission to chaos. He is willing to go mad: “I’m going in, out of my mind“, just to “make you mine“.
The most significant are the lines where the narrator openly declares his willingness to endure pain: “I don’t mind if you hurt me, I love all yours“.
Philosophical perspective: This can be interpreted as accepting the totality of the other. The narrator acknowledges and embraces all flaws and even the pain they bring. It is a step toward true, unfiltered love that absorbs both light and shadow. Love becomes not a source of comfort but a test of the spirit.
The Paradox of “Falling Up”
We reach the core of the track: “I’ve been high, low, and all I know / Is you make me feel like I’m falling up“.
What does “falling up” mean?
- Overcoming Gravity: Falling is always associated with failure, losing control, and ultimately hitting the ground. Falling up denies logic and natural laws. The sensation of losing control paradoxically leads to elevation, euphoria, or spiritual growth.
- Turning Pain into Energy: The narrator accepts that the relationship is exhausting, chaotic, and potentially destructive (“in, out of my mind“). Yet it is precisely this intensity, this emotional centrifuge, that gives him the feeling of enough love (“feel love enough“).
- Uniqueness of the Experience: “And nobody else makes me feel love enough“. This is not a universal recipe for happiness; it is a unique dependence on this specific, destructive dynamic. Only this partner can lift him from “low” states (“high, low“) and catapult him into this strange state of elevation.
Meaning: “Falling Up” is a metaphor for elevated suffering. True life and value are found not in calm (being “stable” or “standing”), but in a process of constant, albeit painful, transformation. The narrator reaches his peak not through ease, but through the strength of resistance and acceptance of his vulnerability, willing to “love all flaws”. This love is so intense that it defies the laws of emotional physics, lifting him up when he should fall.
If you’re interested in another in-depth song analysis, check out our review of Kygo’s “Stole the Show,” where we explore the emotional storytelling and musical nuances that make the track unforgettable here.
